MARCH102005

so stuff happened today... . i found out more shit... i just wish for once people could be truthful... im sick of this shit. i know i don't deserve it, i always blame myself for everything that happens, when i know it's not my fault. i don't know who to trust anymore dude... i really don't, i don't know anything anymore... i'm soconfused, i don't know who to turn to, because everytime i open up to someone, they can never be trusted... they always twist the story and never say the shit they do wrong. maybe i am an open person, and i should stop... but that's just who i am. but forget everything, i'm changing... i'm so sick of being stepped on... it's done and over with. i'm not kari anymore. i don't know who i am... or where i belong, because i know for sure i don't belong in san diego.. . maybe my mom's right, i will do better in temecula... i'm just gonna turn out to be a fuck up... i already have bad grades. i can't concentrate in school... my personal life and school life is getting mixed up.. i don't know why i'm complaining... i feel like throwing up everytime i think of this... cuz i believed him when he said he went to joey's... but then he lied... and went somewhere else.. man... i hate how i am too... the only time i ever really talk to my friends is when something's wrong... i guess i'm two faced too.. i just really wish people could be straight up with me... i mean, it sucks when even the people you least expect... have your back... over the ones that you should trust and shit... i dunno... eff it dude... i quit at my life, fuck it all... whatever happens... alis na ako... one<3...